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Sunday, June 14, 2009

Dear blog,

I'm sorry for not updating you much about my life nowadays. I was too distracted with the different situations around me. Life had been hectic. Full of ups and downs i could say. Poly exams are over. I'll just pray hard i'll do well. Going through another exam now. Had been having a hard time disciplining myself to study since i am in a holiday mood currently. Haha. But, fret not, i would never neglect my studies no matter what.

Have you ever felt that the things going on around you seems unfair? It may have nothing to do with you but somehow you are affected by it indirectly. One thing for sure, i am glad that the disputes among my close friends are over, even though things will be different and won't be like it used to be. One would never want to lose a friend, what more, a close friend. Everyone makes mistakes and being forgiving is the best policy. Cutting off contact, in my opinion, would not be a wise thing to do unless that friend of yours betrayed you or hurt you damn bad. Im sure there are a lot of solutions to problems. But it's up to individual on how they solve it and of course, i respect that. Honestly, i miss hanging out like i used to. There will always be pictures for me to post and stories for me to share. Doing and talking about stupid stuffs, laughing and joking around, i miss those moments. The memories can never be replaced and i thank god for giving me great friends [and an awesome boyfriend! haha.] and allowing me to go through those awesome moments in my life. No matter what happens, i love you people always. =)

Ever felt like you dropped into somewhere deep inside and feels like you can never get out? Ever loved a certain someone to the extend that his own happiness matters more than your own? Ever had the feeling of being pierced in your heart by lots of arrows but you cant seem to get enough of them? It's like you dont mind getting pierced over and over again as long as the archer is with you and you can't seem to let go of him. It's when the archer means so much to you that every bit of him means a lot to you and losing part of him would cause much grieve. And you know, it may never come back. Just thinking of losing the other parts of him could already cause you to get nightmares and you are in need of solutions and ways to get over the nightmares. Whenever, you read back old writings written in the online diary, you realised how much you missed the times and beautiful moments with the one and only person you love. And realising, that it may never happen again could just trigger drops of tears rolling down your cheek. Eventually, you realise that you should never be pulled down by these things and be thankful that he still wants to be with you. You should just get up, be strong and make improvements to yourself. Things would eventually get better again and beautiful moments are awaiting for you in the future.

Im sorry that the post sounds depressing. Haha. And of course, i hope in the future i would post happy things and not only tied down to depressing things. Like what Nury said, "Hidup Mesti Mau Happy Mah! " Haha. Yeah. I guess thats all i have for now. Would update soon don't worry. =)


With Lots of Love,
~NiSa~

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