IM HOT!
yeah.. datz the title.. im hot.. physically, emotionally n internally... lik wtf ahh?! oh ya... basically, i juz came back frm ncc... lik wth... passin out nxt wk..lik wtf... dennnnnnn.. training was OKAYY lah ehkk... not much comments.. Girlz specs was the bez! HAHA! boyzzz... hmm.. okaylah..
aniwaaaee.... u noe wat.... i feel lik i've been giving in to a lot of things already.. n wat do i get? a piece of fuckin shit! all the achievements i made in ncc doesnt give me any benefit, advantage or wateva positive thing about it.. i mean.. im still under someone higher... n even if ppl sae i shine.... lik wth does it bring to me? the person above me GETS EVERYTHIN I WANT.
oh ya, wat do i want? yeah.. to others it may be something nt impt, minor or wateva u call it.. at least giv me A CHANCE. k.. tell u a storyy... dat tyme... durin speech dae... dat certain someone told me she dun wanna participate in the competiton for parade rsm [smthin lik parade commander]. she was encouraging me lik hell to go.. so i was lik.. okayylah... giv it a try... coz i looove shouting.. =)... dennn... sudd, she pop out beside me.. also wantin to try.. lik sial lahh... coz i noe, im no competiton of her... n guess wat? laz 2 man standin was me n her lahh.. lik ARGH!! if onli she wasnt dere, i cud get it. hah..wateva it is, its over.
nxt is... upcomin event... ncc day is nxt tues... morning gt parade... n aft skool gt my pop... hmmm... she told me personally, beside me, n im nt deaf, dat she doesnt wan to be in the morning parade... it was strange coz well, she was higher than me.. BUT, i noe i shudnt be feeling dis, coz deep in my heart, i felt happy.. excited.. lik yesss, at last, i cn be the parade commander... but its nt over yet.. moments bfore we bersurai, we were talkin abt the parade ah.. lik the formation.. n hu the parade commander all... den my maam ask final ques to her, "sure dun wan?" guess wat she said? "i want!" at dat particular tyme, i was lik wtf? dissapointed.. sad... my heart sank into the deep ocean.. k.. crap... urgh! watz all dis seyy.. given me false hope is it?? evn if itz unintentionally, lik wth ahh... my onli job on tat dae is sae the skool pledege.. lik wth ah? i've been sayin it for a million tymes as a councillor....
nw... my onli hope......... my pop.. or shud i sae our pop? i mean, we r passing out soon... she pass out laz year already wat... but she came back to sec 5... soo.. giv us, or, giv me a chance, at least, bfore finally leaving ncc, to at least, bcome wat i want... i mean its saddenin.. all the things i didnt expect to get, i get.. but the things dat i wanna get, i dun...so yeah.. LIFE IS UNFAIR.
okayyy.. i shall chowz first... wanna go cooool myself down...
bubbyez!
Take Care!
